The Empty Seat Beside Me

My mom sent me a box of journals and letters from teenage Krisi. Sifting through the box I am finding prayers I wrote about wanting to be a better person, and prayers I wrote about wanting to make others better people. These journals are also laced with doodles and daydreams of boys. I remember wanting […]

Everything’s a Trigger

  “I wish I could go camping with you.” I am laying on a fancy futon next to my dad in a hospital room, tubes swirl around his body and leave imprints in his skin. I wish we could go camping too, but we’re going to have to settle for this. I was sleeping in […]

Please Go, Please Stay

Go fast, no wait don’t go. For three weeks I have been away from my everyday life — as a single person, I have had the freedom to move to California without thinking of another person, go on a hike when I want to, make coffee or go out for it, cook dinner or order in, […]

We Need Each Other

Dear friends, What have we done? This is the question I ask, sitting in my bed hours after the impossible has happened. Hours after the Donald has been elected president of the United States. Last night at eleven-thirty I walked home from a brewery right after they announced the Donald won Florida. I walked the […]

Little Death’s

Little deaths. Two winters ago I made a commitment to give up God. An active disengagement from my twenty-six years of belief, I was very official about the whole process. I wrote “god is not real” on a piece of paper, lit a glittery white candle, and set the paper on fire in the snow […]